Stuck into it

PS (I know this shouldn't be at the top- but it's important)- LEONA ZHANG WAS IN DOLLY MAG. ULTIMATE LULZ. ;D;D;D;D

HELLO EVERYONE.

For once, I don't think I have anything in particular to blog about. I have nothing really important to say (not that anything I say is ever important)- but all day I've just been thinking about economics... food... economics... biology.. food.. japanese... mm japanese food...

My internet was supposed to be uncapped this morning, but I had trouble accessing it in the afternoon so I spent most of that time studying.  I realise it's actually not that hard to focus on the big desk in my room (the one D normally takes up) because the area is so big and I can just sort everything into piles.

I am a space hog.

I love nothing more than a BIG, WIDE, CLEAN area for me to work in.  There was a time when I used to take the table cloth from the dining table and work on the clean wooden plank- but M forbade me. She said I took too much time putting everything together again when it was time for dinner.  Honestly, I think a work table without a computer and annoying wires/cables is the optimum place for study- which is why the dining room is my favourite location.

Today M, D & K went to Bankstown.. or Blacktown.. or some place like that to get a haircut (apparently there is a good stylist there.. I just get mine cut at Ewood- Medusa. lol) and I had the whole house to myself for several hours. It was great. Well, it would have been better if my back yard neighbours (you know what I mean right? The people who share the same backyard fence as you..) didn't hold a party today that started at 12pm and ended at 9pm. FAR OUT. Who the hell holds outdoor parties that last 9 hours. :( 

Normally, I love kids. But during HSC, I'd love nothing more than to shove a sock in each kid's mouth. It's so disrupting and piercing and euughh.

Oh - actually I have something to discuss now :) Brainwave.  (btw, anyone tried Grainwaves? Are they any good?)

Loss... Death.. Grief. Whatever you want to call it.  Do kids know it?

I remember my Aunt passed away eons ago when I was nothing but a hyperactive midget.  I knew what happened to her. She wasn't playing hide and seek, she wasn't going away on a trip, I knew she had gone to a crematorium in a box and had been turned into ashes.  I thought every kids knew... but apparently not.

I witnessed a sort of naivety I had NEVER imagined before. It was humourous at the time- no doubt; but in reality, I guess it was a bit sad.  A little kid passed away, and the funeral soon came up.  The kid used to live with his group of cousins (seriously- ALL THE SAME AGE) and they had grown up practically brothers and sisters.  When the rest of the kids noticed he wasn't around anymore- there were questions, "mum, where is he?" "Dad, where's Ryan?" but pretty soon afterwards, they stopped asking and I thought they had forgotten about him already.

At the funeral, Ryan was carried in a white coffin, and like alot of traditional funerals, the lid was left off to let other people see his face one last time.  Vincent was playing outside, but was watching through the windows and suddenly he started making a huge racket.

"RYAN! RYAN! MUM! MUM LOOK! RYAN IS IN THE WHITE BOX! WHY IS RYAN IN THE WHITE BOX!"

The other kids started joining in, asking similar questions until Vincent's mum went outside to hush them up.  Later on, when they carried the coffin into the hearse, Vincent asked "Mum! Why are they taking him away?" no one answered him. I hate it when adults do that. TT__TT; seriously- for once, this kid asks a very valid question (he always gives me Ben10 pop quizzes) and no one replies.

After that he starts crying quietly which is unlike him. Vincent can be very sweet, but he's usually LOUD and obnoxious and very rude for a little kid (lol), and when he cries- he bawls loudly. D was worried by this, and asks him what's wrong.  Everything thinks he realises Ryan won't come back and has gone to a possibly better place.. but what he said shocked everyone and I think made everyone laugh.

He said, "Ryan won't come out of the box to play with me."

Maybe it's just me, but .. eugh. it's so hard to find the right words to convey what I'm trying to say.  Normally I'd believe NEVER to underestimate how much children understand- but I guess you shouldn't forget how naive they can be. It's cute, but sad. In this case- slightly morbid.

Children do forget though. I think Laura, Ryan's little sister, has sort of forgotten about him now.

Hm. I don't know how to end this post now. I don't normally write about this stuff I think- just found it a tad interesting.

Mmm. But a day of malfunctioning net, economics, bio and jap, left me lots of spare time to think about stuff I haven't thought about in a long while.

I can probably conclude that I was the smartest kid around. Unfortunately, I can't say the same now. XD

Hope you're all studying well! Hopefully I'll be able to visit KURA again this coming Monday :)  Have a lovely Sunday everyone! (PHO TOMORROW!)